Read through another quarter of proverbs last night. So many things that still need to be worked on. Sometimes it gets to the point where its overwhelming. Its not easy to live this way. Why do you bother? Because I love Him and I want to live my life right. For Him. Gratitude, love, respect, awe. Pick one. Megapraise practice tonight. Haven't really gotten accustomed to the songs. I just need to run through each song once or twice without stopping. Nathan's supposed to pass me his write-up for the prayer bulletin tonight. Hopefully he did it already. Have to complete the bulletin by Sunday. Maybe can get a few ideas from Lynette. Wondering if there could be a way through? I feel like a shy mouse. Testing the cheese a little at a time. Seeing if anything happens after I take the tiniest bite. No sharp pain? No side effects? Ok! Take another leeetle bite. Stop a while to think if I'm doing anything wrong. No? Another bite! Ooh... Whats the matter with some people? I'm giving them an opportunity to look out for others. Why always looking inward? Why always so clique-ish? Your mentality goes before you. It ruins you before you even have a chance? I've got more... Old habits die hard don't they? Over and over, its been repeated. But you just can't get it through your thick skull. You don't realise what you have. Can't you be more aware? Can't you be more careful? Forgive me if I don't make sense to anyone here. I'm just typing out my thoughts. Don't want to actually process anything... This is called 'bitching'. And contrary to what most people say, it does not make you feel better. You want to change the world? Start with yourself, daryl. People seldom ever change others. BUT... If they could only look at things from my point of view. Then they'll realise... Shut up and prove it...

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